I just want to leave you with a few thoughts before I sign off...
For those of you waiting for your miracle whether through giving birth, adoption, or some other means; I want to encourage you to keep believing.
God keeps His promises.
Following our second miscarriage God gave my husband and I separate confirmation that He would one day give us living children, we just did not know when. The day after I miscarried God gave me a verse Psalm 30:11, "Thou hast turned for me my mourning into dancing: thou hast put off my sackcloth and girded me with gladness." That confirmed to me that in His timing God would give us a child to hold on this earth and heal this emptiness in my heart. Eight weeks before my due date I heard a song at church that reminded of the verse God had given me.
Praise Him when your heart is breaking,
When your strength is almost gone lift up your song and,
Praise Him in the fire and fury,
In the dark night of your soul,
Your God is in control
Your tears will dry,
Your heart will mend,
Your scars will heal and you will dance again
~Dance Again by LIFE worship
I struggled with blaming God after my second miscarriage and if you are in that position today I want to share something with you that I recently read that changed my perspective. God is in control yes, and allows tests, trials, and hardships in our lives for a purpose. However the "bad" things that happen to us are a result of attacks by satan.
"Satan was known as the Son of the Morning. It infers a glory, a brightness or radiance unique to him...Perfect in beauty. That is the key. Lucifer was gorgeous. He was breathtaking. And it was his ruin. Pride entered Lucifer's heart...He wanted the attention, the adoration for himself...Satan fell because of his beauty. Now his heart for revenge is to assault beauty. He destroys the natural world wherever he can...But most especially he hates Eve. Because she is captivating, uniquely glorious, and he cannot be. She is the incarnation of the Beauty of God...And there is more. The Evil One also hates Eve because she gives life. Women give birth, not men. Women nourish life. And they also bring life into the world soulfully, relationally, spiritually---in everything they touch. Satan was a murderer from the beginning. He brings death... Ritual sacrifices, genocide, the Holocaust, abortion---those are his ideas. And thus Eve is his greatest human threat, for she brings life. Put those two together---that Eve incarnates the Beauty of God and she gives life to the world...He assaults her with a special hatred."
~Captivating p. 84-86 by John and Stasi Eldredge
But this is not the end of the story...Through Christ's finished work on the cross we have been redeemed and Satan's power has no hold over us. Christ can redeem these wounds for you as He has for me. Christ overcame death and is the giver of life. He is the resurrection and the LIFE. He came to give us life and life abundantly. He wants you to live a life of victory in all areas of your life including the area of motherhood. That may look different for different people through fertility treatments, foster care, adoption, etc. But if God has given you the desire to be a mother He will fulfill that desire in some way. "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4 He keeps His promises. It may not happen today, it may not happen tomorrow, it may not happen in the way you think it will, but He keeps His promises.
On July 2, 2015 Jackson Carter Moore was born.
God has blessed us with this beautiful little boy after two miscarriages and almost three years of waiting. Losing our first two children was the hardest thing I've ever gone through but I can't even begin to list or describe the ways I saw God use that time as a time of growth and blessing in my life. God's timing is perfect and looking back I can see it now.
Take heart dear ones. God keeps His promises.
